It goes by too fast!

Tonight I was bored, so I was looking through some old photo's of Bradley & Parker. It really amazed me how much they have changed. Bradley will be 4 years old this October, and Parker will be 3 in August. I just can not believe my babies are getting SO big! It makes me cry looking back, especially at Bradley's pictures. Bradley now talks back, and can be a real meanie. I remember when he was the most well behaved little guy, and I felt so lucky. He was sweet, and loving, and so cute, (not that he's not cute now).
I had Parker when Bradley was only ten months old. I feel like Bradley missed out a lot because Parker and him are so close. Once Parker was born, I had to spend most of my time tending to Parker. Not to mention the horrible pain I was in after Parker. Some how my spinal was yet again messed up, and I had horrible back spasms. I also tore open part of the C-section scar, and ended up with an infection. It was a complete mess! Looking back, I just wish I would have watched the boys every second of every day. I miss when they were that little. It just makes me so sad looking at those pictures. I just want to reach into that picture and hug them. I'm lucky if I get to cuddle with them now. Bradley & Parker both are always playing and doing their own thing. Dustin is even becoming very independent. I hate how fast my babies are growing up.

I find myself complaining a lot lately because I never get a break from my kids. Bradley and Parker tend to fight with one another a lot, and it causes a lot of screaming. Bradley also is hard to discipline. If you try to put him on time out he screams, and is pretty mean. Parker is the same way! It's a 24 hour job, 7 days a week. It is the best job in the world, but my nerves do get shot some days. I know I am going to miss these days though. It kills me that they are going so quickly. In a few months my youngest will start potty training. Then I won't even have any more diapers to change. I probably sound nuts for not looking forward to having all my kids potty trained. I just know I am going to miss the "baby stage". Now Dustin will be entering that Toddler stage, while Bradley & Parker are now classified as preschoolers. Brad keeps asking me how I will react when Bradley & Parker start kindergarten. That is an easy question to answer.. I'll cry.