Just an update..

I haven’t been writing much on here lately. Life has been so hectic, and tragic? Well, the crap with my family right now, has taken a turn for the worst. The lawyer representing my “family member” is saying he will be getting up to ten years in jail. I am speechless about this, I really don’t know what to say. This affects my life, and my children’s lives. This will change everything, if that actually happens. And honestly, I am afraid. I am afraid it will actually be true, and this person, who did nothing wrong, will go to jail, all because of a lie. I honestly can not understand how some people can lie, and affect some one else’s life to this extent. I mean really! Do some people really have no conscience? If I were to do something like this, I would beat myself up, for the rest of my life.
Instead, my brother’s drug addicted girl friend is having fun with all of this. She has sent my brother to the hospital, and thinks this is all a joke! My whole family is sick over the matter, and this bitch.. This drug addict bitch is actually laughing, and making fun out of this situation. I guess when you can take some pills, it all makes this horrible situation funny? I guess for this bitch it works.
I am just trying hard to keep my attitude positive, and keep all of the bad out of my thoughts. I just hope and pray, that somehow this all turns out ok.

Other then all the bad stuff going on… the boys are all doing good finally! Bradley, Parker, and Dustin were all very sick for a looonnng time. It was awful. I felt like it was an ongoing battle. Bradley and Dustin, first got sick with a horrible stomach virus, and had fever’s, vomiting, and diarrhea. Parker, at that time, only had a belly ache and diarrhea. Then the following week, Parker started puking, had an extremely high fever, then bloody diarrhea. I ended up in the ER with Parker for the bloody diarrhea, which was extremely worrisome.
Bradley then came down with a cough, a horrible cough! My mom came home from work early and took Bradley to the doctor, and they first thought he had the pneumonia, but then ruled that out and said he had bronchitis. The following day after Bradley went to the doctor, Parker was coughing the same way, maybe even a little worse. My mom once again took Parker to the doctor & Parker was given meds for the nebulizer (unsure of spelling), and a steroid because of the large amount of fluid in his lungs. Finally, Dustin started hacking away. Dustin’s cough was so painful for me to hear and deal with. I tried sleeping sitting up and holding him at night, just to try to make it easier for him to breath. Dustin acted like he was in the worst shape, and cried, and cried. I knew he had an ear ache, so Dusty went to the doctors as well. Turned out Dustin ear infections, one in each ear! My poor baby was in so much pain from this, and his cough was awful.
I am just so thankful they are all overcoming being sick. I hate when my kids are feeling sick like that. It is especially hard when your baby is sick. Babies don’t know how to tell you what hurts, and I felt so helpless when Dustin was crying, he was so miserable.

Bradley lately has become a real fan of video games. Everyday he seems to vanish up into his room, and turns on his V-smile video game. He will play for about a half hour, then come back down stairs. He has learned a lot from it, and I am glad they have educational games for little ones. Bradley has also started the copy cat game! It is SO hilarious to watch him repeat every move, and repeat every word his daddy says. The other night at the dinner table Bradley kept his eyes on his dad, and listened to every word he said so that he could repeat everything. I couldn’t help but laugh. Bradley has really come a long way. He was in early intervention for a while, because he never talked. Now he won’t stop! Bradley loves to have conversations with us, and he is pretty darn smart too. It’s also great listening to Bradley and Parker have conversations with each other. It can be funny to listen to, and sweet. Bradley and Parker really are great buds and love each other. At the same time they really beat each other up, and pick on one another. But that is what siblings do.

Parker lately has been acting like his baby brother Dustin. He has been following me around in need of extra attention. Before Dustin came along, Parker was my spoiled little baby.. And a real mommies boy. Now, I really think he is feeling left out. Parker has been pretending to be a baby, and crawls around like Dustin, and even pretends to climb up on my leg as if he can’t walk! It usually makes me laugh. But even though Parker is a little jealous of Dustin, he sure does love him. Parker is always playing with Dustin. When I put Dustin in the playpen, Parker will tell me “I want to play with Dustin, take baby out”. It really is so sweet. Parker is also such a big helper. He will help me with almost anything I ask him to do. Parker is so well behaved.. Most of the time. I really think Parker has a terrible attitude at times too. The doctor told us it’s just normal two year old behavior. I was worried because Parker will go through screaming fits. Some times we don’t even know why he screams. I will ask him what is wrong, and he will totally ignore me and just scream on the top of his lungs. It can be real frustrating, and it worries me too. I never know if he is hurt, or something is wrong, or if he’s just throwing another fit. But other then Parker’s screaming fits, he is so sweet. Parker would love to just spend the entire day with me playing with his little people, fire engines, and cuddling while we watch sponge bob or Diego.

Dustin, has really been coming along. It is only a matter of time before he takes off walking. He gets where ever he wants to go, including up the stairs. We have a baby gate that somehow got broken, so we lay it across the steps and railing. Well, Dustin just picks up the gate and moves it aside to go upstairs. I spend half my day chasing him up the stairs. Dustin loves it too. When I chase behind him up the stairs he will laugh and even turn to look to see if I am coming after him! Dustin is also really becoming a talker. He says bye bye, yeah, dada, daddy, ba ba, mom mom, mamama, mommy, bad, no no, yum, and thanks.. More like “tanx“. I am sure there are probably some I missed to. I will say things and he sometimes repeats it. Another newer thing Dustin has been doing lately is giving kisses. I will be holding him, and when Dustin is in a cuddly mood he will lean in and give you a kiss on your lips or chin. It is the sweetest thing! Dustin usually only gives mommy the kisses, and I’m not complaining :o) Dustin is definitely my boy. He is always right behind me, and clinging to my leg. I think that is why Parker has been clinging to me as well. He wants me to carry him around. I really want to make sure all my boys feel equal, and I really hope Parker doesn’t feel left out. I love them all so very much.

Another subject I’ll cover since I haven’t been wring much is baby number 4. Brad and I do plan on TTC in the next year, or so. This will be our final shot at our daughter. Brad really wants to have a little girl, and so do I. I just hope with our next pregnancy we are blessed with a healthy baby girl. And if not, a healthy baby boy is just as great. I just really would love to have a daughter, and Brad wants a daughter as well. At one point, being a mom to a little girl was extremely important to me, but that feeling has died down quite a bit. Now, I really think it’s more important to Brad to have a little girl, then it is for me. When Brad and I were shopping for clothes for Dustin, Brad pointed out all the girl clothes. He pointed out a Christmas dress, and said “I would want that for our daughter”. It was so sweet. I just hope one day we get our wish, and have the little girl we both so badly want. But, I know we will be blessed even if we have a fourth boy. I don’t want people judging us, just because we would like to have a daughter the 4th time around. The babies sex does not really matter, but I am just saying “it would be really nice to have a daughter”.

Well I think I caught this blog up enough for now. Life is always changing and moving fast, so it is hard to keep up. Finding time to write is extremely hard. Especially when you have 3 little boys ages three and under!