an update..

Lately this blog has been a lot of my complaints. It's kind of my spot to let out my frustration at times. But anyway, first I will update on our boys.

This past week everyone has been real sick. All 3 boys had high fevers, vomiting, and coughs. I had it also & it was terrible. I still can't seem to get rid of this stupid cough. But anyway, the boys missed school & Bradley is anxious to get back. This upcoming week at school will be a fun filled one. On Monday they will be dying Easter eggs, and on Wednesday they will be having an Easter parade! It should be fun for them, and cute for Brad & I to see.
Also there is good news for the boys for next year. The school knows we are low income, and have volunteered to let the boys go to school for the price of one. Bradley will be moving up into the 3 year old class, while Parker will be staying in the 2 yr old class. It is probably best that they are separated. I am just so grateful for these wonderful people at this church/preschool. I feel so lucky that they love our children enough to make this exception. I never would have imagined they would do this for us. I really believed the boys would just have to go without preschool next year.

Going onto another subject now;
This summer Brad and I plan on going on our very 1st family vacation. I feel that we really deserve this. Brad and I have been together for 5 years, and have yet to have a vacation. Bradley & Parker are both looking forward to playing in the sand and seeing the ocean for the first time. Bradley is anxious to make a "big sandcastle" as he tells us. Bradley also is really smart, and comes out of no where with things about vacation, for example:
Bradley-"mommy your gonna get a tan"
mommy-"what?"
Bradley-"yeah mommy, a tan, but you need sun lotion or you'll get a boo boo".
He is just so smart he catches me off guard at times. I never once mentioned getting a tan to him, or that we needed to wear sun tan lotion. So maybe he got that from school since he has been telling everyone that he is going to the beach this summer.

Also Brad & I have been seriously looking into buying a van. We are desperate for a larger vehicle. Currently we have 3 car seats crammed into the back of a sporty dodge neon. It is a very tight fit. My mom was loaning us $2,000 for a down payment for a van, but things did not work out. The reason things didn't work out was mainly because of Brad's past crap. It wasn't even his credit, it was the child support for the child that isn't even his. If that child support wasn't on his credit, and so much money wasn't stolen away from us every month, they would have approved us. It makes me sick. So, Brad went to his parents to see if they would help. But of course they wouldn't. The only help Brad and I ever receive is from my mom. My mom is always trying to help make our lives easier because she know's we don't have anything. My mom has even paid half of the boys preschool the entire time they have been attending. Brad's parents could have helped, but they offer no help. But when it comes to Brad's supposed daughter they jump to help her and his ex. I just don't get it. Brad pays so much money to his ex that we can't even survive, his ex has plenty of money to take care of his 1 supposed kid. We aren't even left with enough money to have our own apartment. If my mom wasn't around to help us, we'd probably be in a shelter. It isn't fair. I don't know how we could ever thank my mom for all she has done for us. My mom doesn't even make that much money and our whole family is struggling. With the way the economy is my mom doesn't even know if she will have a job. So, it just doesn't seem right that Brad's parents who have 2 paid off cars, and had plenty of money to spend on his supposed daughter, and have their home remodled, and buy a giant TV, can't even help their one and only child. And to specify, we didn't ask for money, we asked for help with a loan that we would be paying, not them. My mom had already helped us with the loan for our dodge, and couldn't do it a 2nd time. And if you wonder why we would need 2 vehicles.. it's because the dodge is so Brad can get to and from work, and the van would be for me to take the kids to dr. appointments, plus that way we would all fit in a vehicle when we needed to go somewhere together. Brad wants to wipe his side of the family out of our lives. This time I think I have to agree. I am seeing what Brad has been telling me all along.